Relationship Advice

but I have to add that people who put other people down usually don’t think they are 100% wonderful and that’s why they need their kick by putting down others. I have been getting a lot of crap from people when I was younger (I have never been skinny) and used to deal with depression pretty bad. I used to think :"Wait.. I’ll show.. I’ll make something out of myself and then you’ll see".. sort of like the song "How do you like me now"… now that I’m a successful in the Daycare and Karaoke business and I’m more at ease with my weight and actually like my looks.. I kinda find that I don’t really care about the people who used to make fun of me. They would probably be great friends nowadays..(most of them anyway, some people never grow up), cause kids can be so hurtful but when people get older they change (what would the world be like if they didn’t)… and if I were to tell them how much they hurt me back then, they would probably react like the people at Maurie Povich (I was a kid for crying out loud… I would never do anything like that nowadays)… so I gather, the person who wrote the nasty e-mail was probably some Teenager who is in an identity crisis right now and needed to assure himself that he’s a good looking hunk. No biggy. But I did want him to know that it’s not alright to do what he did, that’s why I responded… I’m sure if he does it to me, he does it with someone else and that someone else might just need his remarks to push her to the edge. Heck, he might not even realize how much it can hurt when you’re a Teen and you hear somehting like that… I do…. and I remember mostly cause of my diary.. a lot of self-inflicted pain back then, but mainly because society wasn’t very nice to me for being fat… nowadays I read the diary (I started putting that on my site too) and I shake my head… guys liked me back then and I would write about them and how guys would come up to me and ask me for the time, or start a conversation and I would write in my diary "He’s soo nice, too bad he doesn’t like me." roflmao nowadays.. some twisted thinking back then, isn’t it…lol… but.. that’s because of all the teasing I got and the self-esteem got lower and lower until I almost was to the point to commit suicide…at that point I really don’t know what happened, but it started going up from there and have been ever since. I guess if I was an alcoholic I would say I hit rock bottom..lol