Relationship Advice

I’d be satisfied with that too. I used to have a bunch but all of them have moved to distant locales where I hardly ever see them, and many of them don’t have email yet either, and that’s not the same anyway. There are people who I am friendly with who I see regularly, like the members of my band, and other people who I know from that and related activities, but they’re not friends like I could confide in them, talk about problems with them, or say ‘hey lets go have a beer/coffee/sandwich’ or whatever & just hang out. I know I need to be more outgoing, but again there’s always this feeling in the back of my head that I seem to have brought myself to that if I don’t absolutely *need* to be away from home & my wife, if I"m just out having fun hanging out or whatever, even if it’s really ok with her that I am, I get this feeling that she’s going to be pissed off at me for not being at home doing some kind of work or watching the kids so that *she* can be doing something. So I really pretty much avoid being outgoing because of this huge guilt complex I have going.. something I"ve gotta shake.